As she fired the wheels came down; she knew that something had happened but it meant nothing to her. She went on firing and the glass and perspex nose of the cabin shattered, and three bright stars appeared inside the cabin quickly in succession. It reared up suddenly and passed right over the L.C.T.s in a steep climb towards Mastodon; she scrambled round with the gun to get it on a reverse bearing, but now her own ship blanked her fire.
~ Nevil Shute, Requiem for a Wren
This book is one of my favorites. I couldn't say exactly why, but when I first read it, I was swept away. I understood it completely. I understood her as if she were me. Kindred souls. No doubt. But how can you be a kindred soul with a fictional character? I don't know, but it is nevertheless true.
I have dry-fired (or pretend-fired, I suppose) an Oerlikon 20mm anti-aircraft gun -- an example on the Jeremiah O'Brien, a World War II Victory ship, and one on the Pompanito, a World War II fleet submarine.
I have live-fired a .50 cal. heavy machine gun and the Mk 19 belt-fed grenade launcher, so I can understand the technical details and sensations of firing such a heavy weapon, though, of course, I haven't shot down an airplane and killed the crew.
But I think that I could do it, both from a weapons skill point of view and from an emotional point of view. I don't think I would freeze up and be unable to fire. But who knows? It would depend on the circumstances and my mental state. By nature, I'm a lover not a fighter and most of the time I was in AFG I was miserable. Or at least I thought I was. In retrospect, my time there may have been the high point of
Sighting up the 20 mikemike Oerlikon on the O'Brien. |
APA President Adams under air attack |
I had no trouble imagining myself in the harness of an Oerlikon facing down a dive-bomber that has no intention of pulling up and I have got to shoot it out of the sky. There is no other option. Light him up and blow him up. Or die in the attempt.