"I still don't understand why lookers-on of battle try to use words to
tell what they've seen. Or why I do. You don't remember the things of
war with the part of your being that forms and chooses words. It's not
that the brain forgets. Mine remembers that during the daylight hours of
[Iwo Jima's] D Day plus 6 and D Day plus 7, the U.S.S. Samaritan took aboard 551
critically wounded Marines, a hundred more than the ship had been built
to carry.
"But it's my stomach that remembers how the ship smelled. It still could
tell the difference between the orthopedic wards aboard where there
always was plaster dust in the air from the fresh casts, and one of the
wards for abdominal injuries, where the smell was of decomposing flesh.
And it's my ears that remember the ceaseless surge of small boat engines
beside us as they delivered up their loads. They still know an Amtrac from an LCVP, the small Higgins boat with the ramp for a bow. They know
the human noises masked by that sound, the curses and commands and
breathing of the seamen carrying stretchers hour after hour. And how
people sound when they are hurting terribly.
"It's my feet that remember the blood. A pool of blood was something a
man left behind him on the deck like his gun and his pack. The important
thing about the blood was that it was slippery under your feet, and you
had to be careful if you were standing in it not to fall down when the
ship rolled.
"None of these impressions, though, is as unfading as what the heart remembers...."
~ Written by a woman who was there. And never forgot.
I invited a friend, a typical city/suburban type, to spend her vacation with us on our ranch and she's certainly enjoyed it. She marvels at the silence, the ability to hear the wind rushing through the grass, a leaf falling making a great crashing sound, as it seems. She'd never seen the moon rise or set directly on the horizon, unblocked by buildings. She'd never seen a shooting star or a satellite crossing the night sky, never seen the Milky Way, the North Star or any of the constellations. She'd never heard the sound of a bird's wings in flight or the singing of field mice underground in their nests (you don't believe that, do you?). She marvels at the sky and clouds, having never seen cloud shadows race across the ground, never seen a storm front approach, filling the whole sky, never heard the sound of rain approaching, never seen a whole rainbow....
But, still, when she wants to know what the weather will be, she consults her cell phone instead of looking out the window or going out on the porch and looking, smelling, feeling, letting her senses tell her what is and what is coming. I can't really fault her. Most of her days have been spent indoors, often in offices without windows, or shopping malls or big stores illuminated by artificial lighting, the only sounds those of human activity, piped-in muzak, ventilation equipment, the only smells those of plastics and chemicals, old carpet, stale coffee, restaurant or cafeteria food, deodorants, perfumes and flatulence. Even when she has gone outside building surrounded her, blocking the horizon, and the sounds of humanity were everywhere, especially all variety of internal combustion engines.
When I explain to her that north winds are cold, south winds are warm, southwest winds are warm and humid, southeast winds bring rain, she is amazed. And which direction is which, she asks. I explain the sun rises in the east and sets in the west and she asks which way are those directions.
Since she's been here, she's discovered that she likes animals and has enjoyed working with the large animal veterinarian, assisting her with extracting semen from stallions (it ain't erotic, trust me), treating dogs with rattlesnake bites and otherwise tending to all the creatures' ills and ailments. She also likes helping to train them, especially the border collies, who make good cow dogs.
She's lost weight since she joined us although her appetite is ravenous and she chows down like a champ, vacuuming up grub she'd have turned her nose up before: corn bread and slow-cooked pinto beans served with maple syrup, apple sauce and campfire coffee; potatoes and chili peppers with eggs all fried in bacon grease and served on pancakes with blackberry jam and apple butter and sides of ham, sausage and bacon. After a day working hard outdoors it's all burned off. She has some kind of phone app that tells her how many calories she's used and it says she is expending about 6,000 calories a day. I tell her the men work far harder than she or I do and they need all the energy-rich food they can get. Watching them, she can believe it, and understands the need for high-calorie food. I remind her that the same sorts of work they are doing in spring weather they will be doing come winter and they will burn even more calories just keeping warm.
Of course, we do have plenty of fruits and vegetables, most grown ourselves or growing wild -- apples, of course, but also, in season, pears, peaches, persimmons, cherries, grapes, strawberries, boysenberries, blueberries, blackberries.... And we have fresh grown veggies, everything from rhubarb to radishes, in season, otherwise frozen or preserved. But what keeps people working is the high energy foods. They can't get enough of those. Meals that would give cubicle drones heart attacks make for robust health in a horse wrangler, jingler and fence rider. Taking noon shade under an old cottonwood, he'll happily unwrap a lunch comprising a thick roast beef sandwich spread generously with butter, a couple of boiled eggs, some corn dodgers and an apple turnover.
The ranch life seems to suit her. She's tanned and fit and her rather
depressed, withdrawn and cynical nature has turned sunny and outgoing
and she smiles and laughs a lot. She's up before dawn and in bed and
sound asleep an hour or two after sunset.
Wherever there are deer there are pumas. They get thirsty too.
Since she's on vacation, she doesn't have to do any of those things she's been helping with and may do as she pleases. And she does. She likes riding her favorite horse, a mare we thought would be too much animal for her, but the horse gentles down at her touch. She also enjoys going down to the creek or the ponds, which are stocked with trout, and skipping rocks, wading the shallows or swimming in the deep pools or in the ponds. She'd never been skinny-dipping before and when I did it she was a bit surprised but was game to try it and soon discovered how delightful it is. Now her clothes come off as soon as we spread a blanket. There's no one around so what difference does it make? Deer and other creatures often come down to drink, a sight that delights her. We're into baby deer season and she is almost delirious with joy watching all the little ones trot behind their mothers, nurse and play. The sight of a mountain lion coming down to the water astounded and frightened her, as well it should have, and suddenly she realized why and was glad that I always bring along a trusty Winchester .30-30 and have it handy at all times. The old sailor saying that you may love the navy but the navy doesn't love you back applies to mother nature as well: you may love the planet but the planet doesn't love you back. To it you are just some other animal's food.
When we drive into the closest town, population 700, she marvels at how friendly people are. Strangers say hello as you pass on the street and clerks, cashiers and wait staff chat with you. In pleasant weather store doors are propped open so a breeze can waft through the aisles. She was surprised to see a dog wander into the meat market and come out with a soup bone. Of course, the county seat is bigger and not so cozy, but it offers plenty of shopping, dining and other entertainment.
Speaking of drives, she also marvels at the empty roads winding through delightful scenery. She says it's like driving in a car commercial. Her emotional drive also seems to have been changed. She tells me that what she used to consider important now seems trivial, her daily life tedious and frustrating. She doesn't want to go back. She's been talking with our vet about becoming a veterinarian assistant and then a veterinarian technician. The local community college offers an Associate of Science degree in registered veterinary technology. It takes a couple of years of study plus several hundred hours of internship with a veterinarian. Our vet says she could use a good assistant, so maybe something will come of that. Who would have thought that inviting someone to your home for a vacation would change the direction of their life? I sure didn't. I hope it turns out well.
“The blue sky, the brown soil beneath, the grass, the trees, the
animals, the wind and rain and stars are never strange to me; for I am
in and of and am one with them; and my flesh and the soil are one, and
the heat in my blood and in the sunshine are one, and the winds and the
tempests and my passions are one. I feel strangeness only with
regard to my fellow men, especially in towns, where they exist in
conditions unnatural to me, but congenial to them.” ― William Henry Hudson
Pawnee Scouts gather beside a Union Pacific train in 1866.
The last to retire were Apaches, but the first and most famous were the Pawnee. Fully 800 joined the US Army in 1864 and were formed into their own battalion. They protected the Union Pacific railroad as it was constructed from attack by the Sioux. Perhaps the next most famous Indian Scouts were the northern Cheyenne who fought the Sioux at Wounded Knee.
It's a shame that the Army's Indian allies are now forgotten and a false history, full of lies and distortions, is promoted -- if it is promoted at all. Indians are the ignored minority.
Northern Cheyenne Scouts, Dec., 1890, during the Ghost Dance troubles.
The Pohjola's daughter legend is related in the eighth poem of the
Kalevala. The old hero Väinämöinen is traveling south when he catches sight of the beautiful daughter of
Pohjola (Northland) sitting at the edge of a rainbow. Smitten, he stops his horse and says, "Come, maid, into my sleigh, step down into my
sledge!" Before she will agree to do that, the girl gives him three tasks to perform. Two of them he
accomplishes. Then she says, "I'd marry one who could carve a
boat out of bits of my spindle." Väinämöinen sets about carving a boat,
but on the third day an accident happens. The axe blade strikes a stone
and the axe bounces off the rock
and hits Väinämöinen, cutting him badly, and he had to abandon the third task and leave Pohjola's daughter. There's a connection between this story and the Indian Scouts. Can you guess what it is?
I was chatting with a Japanese acquaintance about current affairs and she mentioned that there were so many Ukrainian refugees in Japan now. She kept exclaiming on how many there were, so finally I asked her how many, expecting a figure in the several thousands. She said nine-hundred. I started to mention that the US had taken in more than 15,000 and planned to accept 100,000 but then stopped. She would just nod. After all, as she had told me often before, America belongs to everyone. I used to consider that something to be proud of. But now I kind of resent it. No it doesn't. At least, it shouldn't. It should only belong to Americans. Does Japan belong to everybody? Does Mexico? How about Guatemala?
This same Japanese also remarked that the affluent Los Angeles suburb of San Marino, which has become heavily Chinese, is called Chan Marino by her friends. That reminded me that I once overheard a conversation among Chinese students who referred to Japanese as "the Js." And one time when I was sitting on the sand at Cabrillo Beach in San Pedro with a Mexican friend some Orientals walked by. My fence-jumping, bean-eating friend referred to them as pie-faced squinties. His friend, sitting with us, called them Chingchongs. Later we stopped by a Korean market and bought some delicious hot roasted peanuts in their shells. The cashier did not smile at us nor speak. I said hello to her but she did not respond, ignoring me and staring with open hostility at the Mexicans. She scooped up the peanuts and bagged them with a sour look on her face. Ignoring an outstretched hand, she put the change down on the counter, then took a step back. I wondered what I, a native-born, pioneer-stock American ofay, was doing in this place with these people. A hundred and fifty years ago any ancestor of mine would have shot and probably scalped the bunch of them. Had he spotted me, he would have ordered, "Daughter, hie thee hence!"
La Tuna Canyon CCC/PoW camp.
San Pedro used to be a Japanese-American fishing town. There are still remains of salt water baths they built down below the cliffs. After Pearl Harbor, they were expelled and interned at the behest of governor Earl Warren and, according to Gus Russo in Supermob, Jewish gangsters, who ended up acquiring most of the interned Japanese' property for pennies on the dollar. A lot of the expelled San Pedro Japanese were initially housed in a former CCC camp in La Tuna canyon just south of Tujunga before being moved to Manzanar. After they were gone, the camp became a PoW facility housing captured Japanese combatants -- they didn't all fight to the last banzai charge. One of these PoWs so enjoyed his incarceration that after the war he returned to Tujunga, entered the construction trades and eventually built his own house on the hills north of the canyon. During the torrential rains and massive flooding that hit the area during the winter of 1969, his house was one of the few to remain standing. The flooding washed out a nearby cemetery and his yard ended up littered with coffins, some of which broke open and spilled their contents. The camp later became a golf course and I think now it's a housing development.
I have a northern Cheyenne ancestor who attended Carlisle Indian Industrial School in Pennsylvania. One of his grandfathers was a blood enemy of the US Army. He was described by Isaac Coates, General Winfield S. Hancock's surgeon, who encountered him at Fort Larned, Kansas, in the 1860s, thusly: "He is quite six feet in height, finely formed with a large body and muscular limbs. His appearance, decidedly military. A seven-shooting Spencer carbine hung at the side of his saddle, four large Navy revolvers were stuck in his belt, and a bow, already strung with arrows, were grasped in his left hand. Thus armed and mounted on a fine horse, he was a good representative of the God of War; and his manner showed plainly that he did not care whether we talked or fought." Yet his grandson was sent off to learn the white man's ways by his parents who wanted him to have a future as part of the American story. After graduation, he joined the army and served
as a mounted scout with the 1st Battalion, 22nd Infantry, out of Fort Keogh, Montana. He fought at Wounded Knee -- against the Sioux. One of his sons joined the navy and became a naval aviator flying a Martin T4M-1 off the USS Langley (CV-1). He eventually became a member of Adm. Joseph Reeves' staff. One of his sons also became a naval aviator as did one of his grandsons. They all married hot blonde babes (like me!) and had lots of rug rats and house apes, all of whom grew up to consider themselves simply Americans. The Indian part of their ancestry was just one part, but one they considered fully American. After all, an American Indian helped found the Boy Scouts and the Campfire Girls (Charles Eastland, a Santee Sioux), Jim Thorpe (a Sac and Fox) was one of America's first sports heroes, Will Rogers, at one time America's most beloved humorist and social commenter, was a Cherokee, Charles Curtis, a Kaw, became Senate majority leader and later Herbert Hoover's vice president; had the Depression not happened he might well have become president, Capt. Ernest Evans, who became one of the navy's greatest heroes in the Battle Off Samar, fighting his ship with such bravery that even the Japanese who sank her saluted the survivors as they sailed past, was a Cherokee, as was BM1 James E. Williams, the most decorated enlisted man in the history of the US Navy, earning the Navy Cross, Silver Star and Medal of Honor as a patrol boat commander on the Mekong River in Viet Nam. I could go on...and on...and on. Americans all, and proud contributors to American history and heritage. So what is going on now and why? You tell me, because I don't see the point to it or who profits.
Well, to hell with it. It will all come crashing down by and by,
either of itself or because we ordinary people give it a kick in the
keister.
In the meantime, Ima laugh at the world, party with my pals and just enjoy myself. Why not? What's the point of being a gloomy Gus going around muttering we're doomed, doomed, I tell you! Nah. We're not. Just put upon. So forget it and jump up and dance with me!
“A woman must be a woman and cannot be a man.”
―
Martin Luther
And so another spring passes. It was a rainy one. We had hail rattling down on cold north winds, followed by warm southwesterlies bringing thunder and lightning and bursts of torrential rain. Gully washers and frog chokers as my dad calls them. We're going to have a bumper crop of strawberries, fat sweet ones. That means lots of strawberry preserves and strawberry ice cream, made with fresh cream from our own cows. And of course strawberry shortcake till it comes out our ears. I do love strawberry shortcake. And I make the best shortcake you ever ate. Ditto sponge cake. So you can have your choice to go with your strawberries and fresh whipped cream.
I've gotten so used to eating fresh-laid eggs that when I had some at a restaurant the other day I almost couldn't eat them. Very tiny yolks and splayed out whites, obviously old, maybe weeks old, and kept refrigerated.
On the increasing sunny days the skies are often filled with towering cumulus clouds among which the barn swallows dive and tumble, and far above them the hawks and vultures circle silently. On such days we often eat outside, either on porch or patio, or take a picnic basket out to an old pine or fir. We have a grove of deodar cedars and afghan pines planted some 20 years ago that have grown into giants. The deodars remind me of Kipling and the pre-machinegun-era British imperial armies aromatic of horse sweat and saddle leather, gunpowder and tobacco, cholera, gin and adultery. How ya doin' Mrs. Vansuythen?
Spurious correlations are everywhere these days, especially regarding Covid-19, particularly its postulated origin and the alleged side-affects attributed to various vaccines claimed to counter it, but also all sorts of other things, from the wickedness of whites and their pernicious influence on blacks in all manner of things to the existence and causes of so-called climate change to...well, the list is practically endless.
Here are some examples of obviously absurd correlations, but often the absurdity of a correlation is not apparent without solid knowledge of the subject or careful research and reflection. I do suspect, however, that some who are quite aware that the correlations they are promoting are spurious do so assuming those they wish to influence will not realize it. Then there are many cases where the correlation may or may not be spurious, as in the relationship between the rise in atmospheric carbon dioxide and global warming, but the voices of those who suspect it may be so are suppressed.
Graphs are from the book Spurious Correlations by Tyler Vigen. He's got 30,000 of them!
Not everybody fits in -- or wants to. Civilization: what a drag. I'm not being sarcastic. I'm thinking of guys like Christopher McCandless of recent times, or, further into the past, men like Johnny Appleseed or the mountain men who walked off into the wilderness with nothing but a Hawken rifle and a possibles bag. Lots of these joined Indian tribes, marrying into them and living happy lives far from the settled life of the East. One of my ancestors was such, lighting out from Pennsylvania after the Revolution and living the rest of his life west of the 100th meridian.
We've always had hobos, tramps, drifters, vagrants and vagabonds passing through, but not part of, the workaday life. I've read that after the Civil War the country was full of them, most veterans of the war, many suffering from what we would now call PTSD, who just couldn't go back to the farm or the shop. So they hit the road.
Then there are those who simply feel alienated. From what? Maybe they don't know themselves, but they just can't fit in. They want to escape. Escape what? Who cares? Just escape!
I have some sense of how the outsider feels, having been a service brat growing up on a series of navy bases, most overseas, never really having a hometown of my own, even a school. A semester or two in Guam, three in Japan (broken up between Yokosuka and Sasebo), one in Sicily then Naples, another in San Diego, then Whidbey Island, thence to South Korea and back to Japan.... Year after year. So when I finally settled in the States to finish out high school and go on to college, the country I found myself in was not at all like the America I envisioned growing up. I was like a dodo bird, not realizing that all these people swirling around me had not grown up in a "straighten up and fly right, good order and disciple, all ship-shape and Bristol fashion" world, and lots of them were dangerous. I almost lost my life twice before I wised up. Well, I've written about all that before. No need to go back over it. But the thing is, I get it. I get it about feeling like -- being -- an outside observer, of not quite understanding what's going on, missing cultural references that everybody else implicitly understands and often not even realizing that you are missing something.
I'm not just talking about living in the States. I lived so long in Japan that it feels or felt, I should say, more like home in many ways than did the USA. There were times when I felt almost like I was Japanese, but then something would happen that would jolt me out of my illusion. To Japanese I was always a foreigner, an alien. I might forget that, but they never did, and once in a while something they said or did made that clear to me. Often I was hurt by it, by the rejection, the dismissal, the insult. Finally, I got it through my head that my home, my native land, was America and only America and I had to make it so, even if I didn't really know how.
Fortunately for me I did have relatives, including those I had spent vacations with as a child, my parents wanting me to get to know them and also, as I realize now, to not become too isolated from the country of my forefathers. So I had someplace to call home, settle into, travel the byways, walk the paths and streets that generations of my forebears had done. I could stop by a local store and casually chat with the cashier who, it would turn out, was my second cousin. I could have lunch in a diner where my grandmother, as a teenager, had worked as a waitress during summer vacations. So I could ease into being at home in this far land in a way that I never could in Japan or anywhere else in the world but here.
But there are many people for which such a solution to their alienation doesn't exist. Or if it does exist, for various reasons they don't like it or want it. In my case, although I have lived in cities, I am a country girl at heart. I need to see trees and grass and animals and far vistas, open sky, the sun and the wind. So to find this home that I can make my own to also be in such a place makes me happy and content. I don't ever want to leave or go anywhere else. I am where I want to be.
But I'm lucky. Were this place some city, especially one back in the horrid East, I couldn't stand it. I would flee. But to where? I would have no place to flee to. If I were a man, I could become a vagabond, wandering hither and yon, maybe join the merchant marine and sail from port to port. Or maybe even become an ESL teacher drifting from Seoul to Dubai, defensively sneering at the "straights" with serious jobs, becoming ever more alienated and resentful with each passing year of all those with houses and cars, investments and money in the bank living their boring lives. They don't know, I would tell myself reassuringly. Know what? Why what's behind the curtain. But as a woman, that's really not an option. Plus, I just don't have that kind of personality: I'm not sure there is a "curtain," and if there is, I don't want to know what's behind it. So I don't know what I would do. I don't care to think about it.
Well, I started this post wanting to say something, but I see I've just rambled. So I'll shut up. Wait -- I did want to say that I "get" outsiders and I think that society needs such people, those who don't buy the "received" view of the world, don't give a damn about status or career or wealth and would rather sit on a park bench than drive a Mercedes. We can't all be that way, but sometimes don't you wish you could just chuck it all and thumb a ride on a big rig or swing aboard a freight train and just go? Just go. Not me. Not any more anyway. But how about you?
* * *
"The Vagabond's House," a poem by Don Blanding first published in a limited edition of 2,000 imprints in 1928, it went on to sell 150,000 copies. It is here read by Franklyn MacCormack in the middle of the night over WGN radio in 1965. WGN was a clear-channel station broadcasting a 50,000-watt signal that covered most of the Midwest. Long-distance truckers and train crews, all-night workers in gas stations and diners tuned in to listen to MacCormack read poems by such poets as Edgar Guest, Robert Service and Don Blanding, dreamers and drifters, folksy and familiar, all once wildly popular, now forgotten.
"There is a difference between an ideal that cannot be attained and one that is senseless."
~Sidney Hook
"Existence is not something of which we can significantly say that it lacks or possesses meaning. If life is absurd
because one can find no meaning in experience, what are the conditions,
actual or imaginable, in which one could find meaning? What would life
have to be like in order for us to declare that it is not absurd?" ~ Sidney Hook
A fire service OV-10 flew over the other day. Two guys I was with both gushed that it was a P-38. I said nothing. They were so pleased to have actually seen, as they believed, a P-38 in flight and it made no difference to me. Why be a buzzkill?
I don't like wine. To me, it tastes like somebody poured vinegar into perfectly good grape juice. If you want to induce me to drink alcohol, you'll have to conceal its horrid taste in something sweet and flavorful. And don't put in too much or I will start giggling and telling jokes, then get dizzy, barf chunks on you and pass out.
Do black guys have hobbies? Aside from chatting up blondes, I mean. Okay, that was a joke. I meant aside from shooting up gatherings of other blacks. Okay, that was ... oh, never mind. Anyway, I don't know any to ask. I used to, but I never thought about it then. They were solid guys, usually petty officers. Not like.... I know a Mexican guy who collects superhero and video game character dolls -- action figures! he corrects me. Well, esskyooze me! I know an English guy who builds working miniature steam locomotives. From scratch. He also built his own hovercraft to zoom around on. I know a Japanese guy who collects and restores old Marusho motorcycles. And every regular white guy American I know has some kind of hobby -- building sailboats, collecting old radios, training border collies...something.
As soon as I arrive on the rez I notice semi-feral dogs everywhere. Gives the place a Third World feel. No one seems to own them, but they form territorial attachments to certain houses and businesses. I like dogs and have never had a problem with these. They approach me, sometimes snarling and barking, but stop before reaching me and approach cautiously, sniff, look up at me and wag their tails. Dogs are good people evaluators. If one bites you, it's because he's sensed your essential character and judged it bad. I've never been bitten but have had my leg humped. I hesitate to think what that says about my essential character. Sometimes a big dog has even knocked me down and began humping. If there is an owner -- perhaps better described as an acquaintance of the dog -- he always shouts out, don't worry, he won't bite you. But I'm not worried about being bitten, I'm worried about being knotted.
During the shortages, such as they were, the only thing that I bought regularly that was not available was fukujinzuke (福神漬), which I bought from a local Japanese general store. I love it with Japanese-style curry. So I learned how to make my own. Dee-lish. Much better than the store-bought stuff. When I dropped by the store the other day, I noticed they had fukujinzuke back in stock. But I didn't buy any and won't ever again. I wonder how many folks learned during the shortages that making do is making better.
“Lawyer, priest, doctor, politician, newspaperman—these are the
quacks who have their fingers on the pulse of the world. A constant
atmosphere of calamity. It's marvelous. It's as if the barometer never
changes, as if the flag were always at half-mast.”
―
Henry Miller
I know the world's a mess and every day seems to bring ever worse malevolent craziness. I hesitate to even check out the day's news. But around here you'd never know any of it was happening. People are pleasant and cooperative with each other, easily striking up conversations with strangers. We've had plenty of rain this spring and nature is bursting with voluptuous fecundity. I've never seen so many flowers blooming all at once. Just this week the rhodies began blooming in gorgeous colors and daisies and foxgloves are popping up everywhere.The stores are full of goods and produce, I haven't seen anyone wearing a mask for ages, UPS and FedEx trucks trundle along even the remotest byways, loaded with goodies. The smell of fresh-cut grass fills the lingering evenings, which are now often warm and invite sitting on the west-facing porch watching the lengthening shadows beckon on the night and listening to the lowing cattle. Just before dinner time a couple of high-school girls ride by on their horses, chatting and laughing, their dogs trotting along beside them, sometimes pausing to sniff something interesting, then racing to catch up.
“The man who is forever disturbed about the condition of humanity
either has no problems of his own or has refused to face them.”
― Henry Miller
I was browsing the blog of an American ex-pat living in the Ukraine who wants the US to intervene to drive out the Russians. He writes: "If one allows Russia to engulf one country, Ukraine, which resolutely
does not want to be Russian, the same logic could be applied to the
Baltics, Moldova, Poland and everything west of there." Oh, noes! The domino effect! Where was that used before to justify American intervention in a war that was none of our affair? Why, Viet Nam! And how did that work out? And North Viet Nam didn't have nuclear weapons. The guy wanting America to intervene is old enough to have served in Viet Nam and he did -- but as a civilian contractor. He kept his own ass well clear of trouble. But now he wants Americans, whom he otherwise insults and denigrates, to come and save his sorry ass. No, damn it! No! You're the one who chose to abandon your own country and emigrate to what Yale historian Timothy D. Snyder called the "Bloodlands." He titled one of the most horrifying, depressing books I have ever read by the same name. Read it and weep.
To yield to the temptation to find other people inhuman is to take a
step toward, not away from, the totalitarian position. To find other people
incomprehensible is to abandon the search for understanding, and thus to
abandon history.”
―
Timothy Snyder
“When meaning is drawn from killing, the risk is that more killing would bring more meaning.”
―
Timothy Snyder
The world is too grim to gaze at it for long. And there is nothing you can do about any of the horror. Go ahead, shout Stop! into the raging wind smelling of fire, dismembered bodies and explosives, bringing to your ears the sounds of gunfire and screams. What good does it do? Better to turn away, focus your gaze on your own life and the lives of those you love, and let the rest of the world go by. This I know by direct personal experience. You cannot save the world. You probably can't even save yourself. But that, at least, you can try to do with some hope of success.
“Life itself is an exile. The way home is not the way back.”
―
Colin Wilson
The piano is my favorite instrument by far. It's so expressive. Every human emotion can be evoked with a few finger caresses of the keys. Wouldn't you like to join me and a few of my friends at the piano, drink in hand, while I play some of my sentimental favorites, starting with "A Nightingale Sang in Berkeley Square," composed by Ray Noble and premiered in London in 1940 just as the Battle of Britain was beginning and the British Empire began fading into the past.
My mother's life-long friend has declined into dementia. She was fine until she had hip replacement surgery. Since that she has just faded away. I always liked her. She had such a fund of stories and lore, vivacious and always a pleasure to be around. My mother has known her since they were children, both early boomers, and now.... When my mother called her the other day she thought she was her daughter. It seemed like she did not remember my mother at all, but then suddenly she asked when she was coming to pick her up because they were late for some play that they had gone together to see at the Pasadena Playhouse in the 1970s. Then she lapsed into mumbling and after a few minutes my mother told her good-bye. There was a certain finality in the way she said it.After she hung up, my mother said that she always talked to her as much as she could whenever she could because she knew some day they would not be able to. One or the other would have this happen to them, or simply pass away. And this day was the day. Her friend was gone. Alive in body for some while longer, but gone. Then she looked at me and said, "Always talk to me. It doesn't matter about what, just let us be together. One day, one day soon, will be the last time we ever do, and we don't know when that will be. I will miss not talking to you so much when I am gone." Tears welled up in my eyes and felt an overwhelming wave of sadness, yet I was at a loss for words. I wanted to talk, to say what I felt to her, but I could not.
An
immigrant can live in America for decades and still not know very much
about it. I mentioned in an earlier post how a Japanese woman who has
lived in this country for decades had never heard of malted milk and
didn't know what it was. She'd also never heard of a milk shake or a
root beer float. In fact, she'd never even drunk a root beer or eaten a
bologna sandwich, did not even know what bologna was. One time I made some brownies and was sharing them with some friends and acquaintances. I offered them to a Taiwanese woman who had gone to university here and had worked for a Taiwanese company in the states for some years. She looked at them and said she didn't like black bread.
And
recently I read something by a Vietnamese immigrant, also in this
country for decades, who was unaware of Garrison Keiller's much beloved
fictional town of Lake Wobegon and the stories about it he told on his
long-running radio series, A Prairie Home Companion. A paraphrase of the legendary closing line, "That's the news from Lake Wobegon, where all the women are strong, all
the men are good-looking, and all the children are above average," he did not recognize at all.
A
British immigrant, likewise in this country for decades, was unaware
there was an airport named for John Wayne in Orange County, Calif., and
thought a reference to it was some kind of joke. He also has that
typical British superciliousness to all things Californian, even though a
few questions elicit the fact that he knows nothing at all about the
state, yet he still assumes he knows all there is to know.
In
contrast, I know several Mexicans who know absolutely everything about
American pop culture, far more than I know, and absolutely adore it.
They love Whataburger and Lady Gaga. They are crazy about Las Vegas and
think the USMC is the greatest military organization in the world.
When people talk about northern Mexico eventually forming part of the
United States, in fact if not in law, a sort of Tex-Mex political entity
stretching far and wide, and the rest of Mexico drifting into the orbit
of central America, I can believe it.
I
was grumbling to my dad that although I had managed to jury-rig a
repair to my time machine's transmorgrafier, now the darn
discronificator had gone on the fritz and I couldn't find a replacement
anywhere. He said, "Why don't you try Edmund Scientific?" So I
looked them up but they went out of business years ago. There is some
outfit using their name to import overpriced Chinese crap, but I
wouldn't trust any of it to perform as advertised. Dad said that when
he was a kid he could get anything he needed to make anything he wanted
by checking out the local Army-Navy surplus store, the Western Auto
hardware store or ordering from Edmund Scientific. I said, "Yeah, but you
are talking about making stink bombs to clear out the school auditorium
during assemblies and making M80-powered rockets to launch Barbie Doll
astronauts and I'm talking about a time machine." He said, "How do
you know I didn't make a time machine? How do you think I met your
mother? I stopped off at Ur in 2,000 BC and there she was dancing in this
temple...." I said, "Dad, I'm not 10-years-old anymore. You can't
pull that stuff on me now." He winked at me. Boy, did he have me
believing some weird stuff when I was a kid. Like where my brothers
came from.
We needed some electrical work done on an old structure we are repairing and the earliest appointment we could get was in October! So we snagged the date. All those kinds of licensed and bonded service technicians around here are swamped with work. It's funny how society is stratified to class lawyers and doctors higher than well drillers, farm machinery operators, HVAC specialists and so forth, but these latter seem to be in much greater demand and earn a lot more money. And a lot of these guys don't even bother to go to trade schools. They enlist in the service with high enough scores that they can pick their specialties and go for ones they know they can convert to a civilian career. So they get paid to learn, get OJT, plus see a bit of the world. That's using the old noggin.
I was solicited to join the VFW a while ago and did so because, among other reasons, one of my relatives or ancestors or whatever you'd call him was the architect who designed the building way back when, along with the local courthouse, the commercial hotel and the railroad station. The railroad station is still around but train passenger service is not even a distant memory for anyone alive today. These days it houses a restaurant and some offices. The same is true of the commercial hotel, which is dedicated mostly to a local medical group and various legal services, plus apartments on the upper floors. The downstairs restaurant is the same one that opened when the hotel did more than a hundred years ago. It specializes in prime rib and steak on the dinner menu and roast beef sandwiches and burgers on the lunch menu. The breakfast menu serves steak and eggs, but the most popular order, I'm told, is sausages and buckwheat cakes with maple syrup, all locally sourced.
It has an adjacent bar that is very masculine, all dark mahogany and brass with a painting of a sensuous nude over the bar. There is also a woman's face painted on the floor. No, really. Although it's not roped off, no one ever steps on it. It's always cool and quiet in there, with subdued conversations at the booths in the back. There is no TV or piped-in music. There's a Steingraeber baby grand piano always kept in tune in one corner. I like to play it when I stop by. I'm always welcome to do so, with the caveat, "No boogie-woogie or any of that modern stuff!" So a little Chopin or Liszt. One time while I was playing Chopin’s Prelude in D-flat Major, Op. 28: No. 15, a guy in a cashmere three-piece suit swung by on his way out and stuffed a hundred-dollar bill into my empty Shirley Temple glass. "Use it to take a piano lesson," he said. But he smiled as he said it. Oh, right, the VFW. Well, the reason it came to mind is that while I was sitting on a bench waiting for el jefe to pick me up, a couple of men walked by and I heard one of them say to the other, "If I wanted to hear someone talking out of his ass, I'd have dinner at the VFW on chili night."
For the first time that I can remember, the Japanese cherry blossoms are blooming, the fruit cherries are blooming and the apple trees are blooming all at the same time. Oh, and the rose bushes and azaleas are bursting with bloom. And there are wild flowers everywhere. I especially like the little shy ones hiding in the shade.
There are bumble bees buzzing all over the flowers, and I even saw an earthworm after a shower! Meadow larks are everywhere, as are song sparrows and the mornings are a delight of birdsong. The humming birds are flitting and flashing among the blooms. They even check out the red on my gloves and hat. I've felt the breath of their wings on my face. There is even an astonishingly beautiful stray cat who has decided to adopt our back porch and the dogs have decided he's okay, as have the other cats.
I mentioned the other day that we were thinking about getting out of the cattle business (after 150 years!), but I found out that that a Japanese firm, on hearing of this, invested a substantial sum to ensure that we don't. Japan is our biggest export market for beef. A few restaurants that serve our beef are Ikinari, Matsuzaka and Kurauzo in Tokyo. Oh, and a place called the Meat Winery. On Okinawa, O's Steakhouse serves our beef. I'm sure there are others. South Korea is our second largest export customer, followed by China.
I was reading some guy's blog where he was complaining that American beef was the worst in the world. Oh, really? Then he was lauding grass-fed beef, which I don't think he understood what was. I don't know if you can actually get real grass-fed beef outside of the US and maybe Canada. There's not much of a market for it. It's very lean with no marbling. The taste is very gamey. And it's kind of tough. Gonna need that steak knife. Usually so-called grass-fed beef is only sort of. If you read the label, it typically says "grass fed, grain finished," meaning they trotted the cow brutes through a meadow then sent them on to a feed lot. Our grass-fed beef is certified to be 100% grass fed. Each individual creature is so proved to be by individual inspection. And it's expensive, about three-times what grain-fed beef costs. We're a member of the National Sustainable Agricultural Coalition and that helps us understand and comply with the USDA's AMS standards. We're also a member of the American Grassfed Association, that certifies each one of our cattle to be genuinely grass fed.
Grass-fed beef on the hoof.
The very opposite of grass-fed beef is Kobe and Wagyu beef, very richly marbled and tender. I doubt such cattle ever see a blade of grass. Outside of Japan and...maybe...South Korea I would be leery of eating Oriental beef. Besides the notorious cruelty towards animals those people display, especially the Chinese, God knows what they feed them. And Europe is not much better. After all, the outbreak of mad cow disease in Britain was caused by them feeding offal from slaughter houses, especially the brains of other cattle, to their livestock. Gawd. Here in Uncle Sam land we have PETA to raise hell if we stray from the straight and narrow. A lot of righties don't like PETA but I am a member and think they do good work. We've also worked with Mary Temple Grandin, the autistic lady who helps improve the emotional lives (yes!) of livestock. I've read her writing and find her a valuable and interesting resource. In Asia, outside of Japan, most livestock is treated the way East Asians treat PoWs. It's shameful and sad.
There is a connection between this post and the previous one. Can you guess what it is?
“The ultimate factor in the fall of Iwo Jima can be attributed only
to the character and courage of the United States marines. In war there
comes a time when power alone has reached its limits, when planes no
longer can be called upon to deliver bombs effectively, when ships have
no more shells to fire, when defenses will no longer yield before fire
power, however heavy. That is the time when men on foot must pay for
yardage with their lives. That is when they call on the marines." ~ Robert Sherrod, who was there.
Have you ever even set foot on Iwo Jima? I have as part of FCLP (Fleet Carrier Landing Practice) exercises. My grandfather was an aviator aboard Lexington (CV-16) when she was part of TG58.2 providing close air support for the 1945 landings. My grandmother was a Navy nurse aboard Solace (AH-5) evacuating and treating wounded at Iwo. She actually went
ashore during the fighting, along with other nurses, to carry out
triage.
What a god-forsaken place to have war, a barren volcanic island, the beaches composed of and hemmed in by steep terraces of constantly shifting black sand, volcanic cinders, and ash some 15 feet high, impossible to properly dig in to for protection from the Japanese fires.
Wounded placed on deck waiting for treatment.
Some 25,000 Americans and Japanese were killed in the space of five weeks on that island. That works out to about one human being every two minutes, hour after hour, day after day, week after week. Plus some 20,000 wounded, so call it an individual person brutally killed or maimed every minute.
Back in his day, President Franklin Roosevelt called Europe an incubator of wars. I wonder if, looking at the latest European war, occurring so many decades after he said that, would he be dismayed that it was still so, or would he merely make a face and nod.
And when Europeans have wars with each other, boy do they war, slaughtering and killing combatants and civilians however they may, smashing cities, destroying crops, livestock and farms to induce famine in the survivors. When they finally exhaust themselves and quit, they hold grudges and can't wait to raise another generation to hurl at each other, renewing the butchery with sword and pistol, no quarter ask or given.
It's interesting to study FDR's evolving views on Europe and its role in promoting perpetual warfare. Shortly after he was inaugurated in 1933, he had some kind words to say about Hitler, apparently thinking him a new, progressive type of politician. Also that year, when Dwight Eisenhower approached him to provide funds to modernize the army, especially its armor, noting that the US Army only had 12 modern tanks, Roosevelt told him there was no need; in fact, he was considering abolishing the army entirely, turning over homeland defense to National Guard units. After all, there certainly would never be a major war again. The Europeans had finally learned their lesson in the Great War and would never be so foolish as to turn to war to solve their problems ever again. So why have an army?
Eisenhower told him, in polite terms, that he was being naive. The Europeans had not and never would change and there would be another great war in Europe by 1940. What Eisenhower told him dovetailed with what Henry Stimson, Taft's Secretary of War and Hoover's Secretary of State, told him in a private meeting, that it was time, even past time, for the United States to seize the world cockpit from the Europeans, telling them to settle down and behave, play fair, share their toys and no hitting! Don't make us come over there! That's kind of a flip way of saying that Roosevelt was beginning to realize what a mistake had been made at the end of what was not yet called World War I, that as historian Edward H. Carr would write a few years later, "in 1918 world leadership was offered, almost by universal consent, to the United States and was declined." (The Twenty Years' Crisis, 1919-1939) It was time to rectify that mistake. But how to do it when the American people wanted no part of foreign slaughterhouses? Foreign entanglements? Get real. Foreign abattoirs, charnel houses, foreign cemeteries filled with American youth? No. No!
How the international interventionism of Henry Stimson and his confreres not only won over Roosevelt (who gets praised -- or blamed -- for the policy) is a long and fascinating story but by 1937 Roosevelt was warning of the danger of Nazi Germany in his famous Chicago speech and calling out British and French complacency. It's actually quite amazing that he actually did get America to become not merely an interventionist power, but the enforcer (emphasis on force) of an Americanized planet, with mighty Europe being a sullen, resentful has-been. An example of what a stunning change FDR engineered is that at the beginning of 1935, when Roosevelt proposed that the United States join the World Court, basically a symbolic gesture of solidarity with European efforts to prevent another war among themselves by creating an adjudicating body to resolve disputes, the senate revolted, epitomized by Minnesota senator Thomas Schall's literal shout during debate over the issue, "To hell with Europe and the rest of those nations!" I found that quote in Time magazine's contemporary coverage of the senate debate. Schall represented the vast majority of the American electorate's thinking. When Italy invaded Ethiopia later that year, the League of Nations tried to impose an economic embargo but Roosevelt, understanding how hostile the American voter was to any foreign entanglement, would not commit the United States to participating. In fact, US oil exports to Italy tripled and the League's efforts to punish Italy collapsed, the League powers blaming America. But in December, 1937, it was discovered that Sir Samuel Hoare and Pierre Laval, the British and French foreign ministers, had signed an agreement to partition Ethiopia between their two countries. The America public reaction was profound cynicism and disgust for the European so-called democracies, which were really nothing more than gangster nations, their statesmen nothing but snooty-accented, tuxedo-clad Al Capones, Lucky Lucianos and Dutch Schultzes, their flag-waving, drum-beating patriotic wars nothing but fights between mobsters for control of the rackets.
When the Japanese bombed the US gunboat Panay as it patrolled the Yangtze River near Nanking, along with three Standard Oil tankers, the same month as the Ethiopia revelation, Secretary of the Interior Harold Ickes, echoing widespread Roosevelt Administration feeling, said, "War with Japan is inevitable and if we have to fight her, isn't now the best possible time?" I don't know why he thought December, 1937, was the best possible time, but the American public and a press which then followed closely that opinion, did not agree. "The gunboat Panay is not the battleship Maine," editorialized The Christian Science Monitor, and Minnesota Senator Henrik Shipstead demanded, "What are they doing there?" of American naval vessels on Chinese inland waterways, echoing the questioning of the majority of Americans who did not want to fight Japan but to get our sailors out of China. The upshot of the Panay incident was that the Ludlow Amendment introduced by Indiana congressman Louis Ludlow, stating that except in case of direct invasion of American soil, the United States could only engage in war if a majority of the voters agreed in a national referendum, which had been bottled up in the House Judiciary Committee, got all the signatures needed for a discharge petition and the amendment was brought to the house floor for a vote. President Roosevelt strongly fought the amendment, noting that in 1898 the public, propagandized by the Hearst newspapers and other media, would have voted for war, "in all probability an unnecessary war," (!) "one which a strong, unencumbered president could have prevented." The amendment was defeated 209-188, a pretty narrow margin, considering how radical the amendment was.
It was around this time FDR began thinking of why Europe was so warfare prone, deciding their empires were a major cause of friction, even compelling Japan to adopt their ways to avoid becoming colonized itself, and concluding that they all had to be dismantled, along with the European armies and navies, and a new world order (that phrase), a one-world system, had to be instituted to suppress European aggression, liberate the peoples exploited by their imperial policies and ensure peace. Thus, while anti-interventionist Americans thought that Roosevelt was in league with the British Empire and Jewish foreign interests, selling out America for unfathomable reasons other than that he was in league with Satan as Woodrow Wilson, the president blamed for getting us into the Great War, is depicted to have been in John Dos Passos' novel 1919, part of the USA trilogy, in which Wilson is described as having, " a terrifying face, I swear it's a reptile's face, not warm-blooded...," he actually had his own agenda, one of vast ambition: to end war, destroy all empires, free colonial peoples, bring prosperity and peace to the whole world. And to do that he would use the economic and military power of the United States. Of course, even if Roosevelt could accomplish this, he was committing America and its people to being what would later be termed the world's policeman, essentially forever, without asking Americans if they agreed with his agenda or wanted such a role. He was just going to do it, even if he had to lie to the America people to do so. In 1940, campaigning in Boston for an unprecedented third term, he told a crowd, "While I am talking to you mothers and fathers I give you my assurance once more -- I have said this before but I shall say it again and again and again: your boys are not going to be sent into any foreign wars." Well, how was he going to achieve his dream for a remade world without American involvement in wars overseas?
In any case, despite dying only about two months into his fourth term, with much of his plan for the new world he envisioned still unaccomplished, the postwar world did, in fact, resemble fairly closely what Roosevelt envisioned. The European empires dissolved, the colonial peoples became independent and world peace, more or less, was enforced by the might of the United States. Of course, some things FDR did not imagine, most especially the Cold War, developed to produce a world Roosevelt would not have wanted. Two allies of convenience, Stalin and Churchill, largely brought the Cold War about, Stalin because he had his own world agenda and Churchill because he saw that a world divided between the USSR and the USA had no room for the British Empire, so he set about fomenting dissension between the two, not that Stalin needed much help with that. But I do wonder if Roosevelt had lived and been of sound mind if he could have managed the postwar world much better than Truman did -- not to bad mouth Truman, who achieved a lot, all things considered. And the efforts of the colonial powers to hang on to their empires, most especially the French, led to wars that never should have been, and American involvement that never should have happened. And the freed colonial peoples have not prospered as much as Roosevelt imagined they would. And this...and that.... Still, Roosevelt did a lot to change the world for the better. We've had no wars between great powers, as was routine when Europe ran the world, and however much we can attribute that to FDR, he is to be thanked. And, although I haven't mentioned it, with his domestic policies he radically changed America itself, I personally think in ways that were necessary and helpful. I'll let the following documentary review the domestic scene under Roosevelt.
Life in the Thirties, produced by NBC Television's Project XX, first broadcast October 16, 1959. It's a look back at that decade by those who lived through it. America was one sort of country when the decade began, and another altogether when it ended. It was a terrible decade and it led to a world war, and on into the world we inhabit today. The one-hour documentary is here divided into two parts. Narrated by the wonderful Alexander Scourby, it focuses on Roosevelt's first two terms and how he changed the American domestic scene, not his foreign policy. It's a good reminder that for Americans America is what's really important, and what a president does to improve America and solve its problems is what really counts.
the ship smelled. It still could
tell the difference between the orthopedic wards aboard where there
always was plaster dust in the air from the fresh casts, and one of the
wards for abdominal injuries, where the smell was of decomposing flesh.
how
people sound when they are hurting terribly.
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