Thursday, September 30, 2021

Indian Ghosts




INJUN SUMMER
John T. McCutcheon
Chicago Tribune
September 30, 1907



Yep, sonny this is sure enough Injun summer. Don't know what that is, I reckon, do you? Well, that's when all the homesick Injuns come back to play; You know, a long time ago, long afore yer granddaddy was born even, there used to be heaps of Injuns around herethousandsmillions, I reckon, far as that's concerned. Reg'lar sure 'nough Injunsnone o' yer cigar store Injuns, not much. They wuz all around hereright here where you're standin'.
Don't be skeeredhain't none around here now, leastways no live ones. They been gone this many a year.
They all went away and died, so they ain't no more left.
But every year, 'long about now, they all come back, leastways their sperrits do. They're here now. You can see 'em off across the fields. Look real hard. See that kind o' hazy misty look out yonder? Well, them's InjunsInjun sperrits marchin' along an' dancin' in the sunlight. That's what makes that kind o' haze that's everywhereit's jest the sperrits of the Injuns all come back. They're all around us now.
See off yonder; see them tepees? They kind o' look like corn shocks from here, but them's Injun tents, sure as you're a foot high. See 'em now? Sure, I knowed you could. Smell that smoky sort o' smell in the air? That's the campfires a-burnin' and their pipes a-goin'.
Lots o' people say it's just leaves burnin', but it ain't. It's the campfires, an' th' Injuns are hoppin' 'round 'em t'beat the old Harry.
You jest come out here tonight when the moon is hangin' over the hill off yonder an' the harvest fields is all swimmin' in the moonlight, an' you can see the Injuns and the tepees jest as plain as kin be. You can, eh? I knowed you would after a little while.
Jever notice how the leaves turn red 'bout this time o' year? That's jest another sign o' redskins. That's when an old Injun sperrit gits tired dancin' an' goes up an' squats on a leaf t'rest. Why I kin hear 'em rustlin' an' whisper in' an' creepin' 'round among the leaves all the time; an' ever' once'n a while a leaf gives way under some fat old Injun ghost and comes floatin' down to the ground. Seehere's one now. See how red it is? That's the war paint rubbed off'n an Injun ghost, sure's you're born.
Purty soon all the Injuns'll go marchin' away agin, back to the happy huntin' ground, but next year you'll see 'em troopin' backth' sky jest hazy with 'em and their campfires smolderin' away jest like they are now.

 From his pipe the smoke ascending
Filled the sky with haze and vapor,
Filled the air with dreamy softness,
Gave a twinkle to the water,
Touched the rugged hills with smoothness,
Brought the tender Indian Summer
To the melancholy north-land,
In the dreary Moon of Snow-shoes.
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
     Hiawatha, 1855

 

Tuesday, September 28, 2021

Dearest Henry


“The aim of life is to live, and to live means to be aware, joyously, drunkenly, serenely, divinely aware.”
Henry Miller

 “I don't know how to tell you what I feel. I live in perpetual expectancy. You come and the time slips away in a dream. It is only when you go that I realize completely your presence. And then it is too late.”

 ―Henry Miller
 


“Everything we shut our eyes to, everything we run away from, everything we deny,  serves to defeat us.” 

 ―Henry Miller


“Why are we so full of restraint? Why do we not give in? Is it fear of losing ourselves? Until we lose ourselves there is no hope of finding ourselves.” 

  ―Henry Miller


“I see myself forever and ever as the ridiculous, the lonely soul, the wanderer, the restless frustrated artist in love with love, always in search of the absolute, always seeking the unattainable.” 

 ―Henry Miller

 “I don't give a fuck anymore what's behind me, or what's ahead of me. No sorrows, no regrets. No past, no future. The present is enough for me. Day by day. Today!” 

  ―Henry Miller


“What holds the world together, as I have learned from bitter experience, is sexual intercourse.”

  ―Henry Miller 

“Sex is one of the nine reasons for reincarnation. The other eight are unimportant.”
  ―Henry Miller


  “A good meal, a good talk, a good fuck--what better way to pass the day?” 

 ―Henry Miller


 

 

To A White Girl



 I love you
Because you’re white.
Your whiteness
Is a silky thread
Snaking through my thoughts
In red hot patterns
Of lust and desire.

I hate you
Because you’re white.
Your white flesh
Is nightmare food.
You’re my Moby Dick,
white witch.
Loving you thus
And hating you so,
My heart is torn in two.
   ~ Eldridge Cleaver

 







Monday, September 27, 2021

JAP, not Jap



The other day, I heard someone talking in an office I was walking by.  Her voice had a sharp, abrasive, vaguely New Yorky accent that reminded me of a former university acquaintance, a transfer student from Brandeis, I once gave a ride to when her white BMW (given to her by her parents) was in the shop again. She gingerly got into my lime green Mustang that I bought used with my own money and thought was totally the coolest car ever, as if it were one giant cootie.
She clutched both sides of her seat in a death grip and cringed back into the headrest as we catapulted up the on-ramp into freeway traffic. Once settled into the fast lane, I turned on the radio just as Tenth Avenue North’s song “By Your Side” came on. I turned up the radio as I shouted “Oh, I love this song!" (did I mention the top was down?) and began singing along. It was at that moment that I learned the true meaning of the phrases, “If looks could kill,” and “She looked daggers at me.”
Despite my efforts to be nice to her, she’d already made it pretty clear that I was some variety of subhuman because of my generic southern accent and the fact I was a service brat, but that I was an unapologetic Christian was the final straw.
I knew lots of folks get the dry heaves at the mere thought of contemporary Christian music, so at the time I didn’t think her reaction was all that big a deal. But thenceforth she would not even say hello to me when our paths crossed. I heard that she referred to me using compound adjectives describing my alleged political affiliation, eating habits, sexual proclivities and ancestry. I was hurt.
Sniff.
Okay, okay, I wasn’t hurt. I didn't think much about it at all.  I just shrugged.

 Before the above episode happened, how I met this girl, the first Jewish individual I ever knew -- or at least knew was Jewish -- was that she glomed on to me because I was a surfer and she was hot to hook up with what she called a surf Nazi, that being not at all what surfers mean when they say surf Nazi.  

What she meant was a surfer dude, a broad-shouldered, muscular, tall guy with sun-bleached blond hair and an outdoor tan, somewhat under-endowed between the ears but very well endowed between the legs.  Her fantasy fuck in other words, not someone to introduce to mom and dad but someone to boast about to her friends.


The problem was that she was a very...um...ethnic-looking, had a figure like an ironing board and a personality like a rattlesnake.  Oh, and she couldn't swim, let alone surf, and never tried to learn.  Her hunting technique was to lie on the beach in her thousand-dollar Rodeo Drive one-piece with obvious bra padding and say to any dude who walked by after riding the waves, "That looked dangerous!"  The guy would glance at her and give a wan smile without breaking his stride.

I surfed, so naturally had conversations with guys on the beach before going out about the waves and the wind and what not, sometimes chatted while floating if the waves weren't cooperating, and walked back up the beach with them afterwards.  When we passed by her, of course I had to stop and say hello, which gave her a chance to ask who my friend was and trot out her that-looks-dangerous routine.  That always fell flat because we surfed because it was fun and sometimes transcendental.  It could be dangerous, but like any physical skill you learned and managed the risks so that you could do what you wanted to do.

Saying surfing looked dangerous was like telling motorcycle racers that they must have a death wish and thinking that would attract them to you.

I mean, really.

Sometimes we would have little beach parties after sunset, with a fire sending up sparks to blend with the stars, sip a little happy juice, cook hotdogs, chat and cuddle.  She would invite herself along and try to join in, but it was always uncomfortable because her behavior wasn't...how can I explain it?...natural.  She wasn't one of us and clearly didn't want to be.  She was slumming among her inferiors for purposes of her own.  Still, out of courtesy, we tried to make her feel welcome.

She had her eye on one quite splendid example of the male animal and repeatedly made plays for him that he never seemed to notice.  But that never fazed her.  She kept at it until one evening, not seeing him by the fire, she went looking for him and discovered him giving a surfer girl an enthusiastic demonstration of kama sutra techniques.  Awkward. 

After that she never came around anymore, and after the Mustang episode she never talked to me again.

A few years later I saw her once more by chance.  She was performing at a comedy club in Oceanside that had a lot of Marine clientele.  I was there with a couple of crayon-eaters and was surprised to see her because I had assumed she had gone back east and married a stockbroker or something.  Her routine was of the "they're wrong" type, not the "it's funny because it's true" type.  I guess it was okay.  I'm not a judge of such things, but the audience laughed and clapped.  Anyway, I thought I should go up to her after her act and say hello, but then I forgot about it and only remembered as we were in the parking lot and I was climbing onto the pillion seat of my date's motorcycle.  I was about to say "Oh, wait, I forgot to..." when I stopped myself and thought, why should you say hello to her?  She never liked you and only wanted to use you to get what she wanted.  When that didn't work she dropped you. Why are you always trying to be nice to everybody?  Some people don't deserve being nice to.  So I mentally shrugged, wrapped my arms around my date and hung on tight as we roared south along the Pacific Coast Highway.

 




Saturday, September 25, 2021

This and that

I took a Japanese immigrant senior citizen grocery shopping the other day.  She's lived in this country for more than 40 years.  I bought some things for myself, too, including a jar of malted milk powder.  She looked puzzled at my purchase and asked me how malted milk was different from ordinary powdered milk.  Despite all those decades in this country, she had never heard of malted milk or milk shakes.  

Later, we got to talking about the illegal alien crisis and all the Haitians flooding into Texas and she asked me when the United States had acquired Haiti.  When I said we never had and that it was an independent country, but had once been a colony of France, she was genuinely puzzled:  why were we taking in all those people from  someplace we had no connection too? Then she asked me why we didn't send the army to the border and open fire on the illegals and drive them away.

I used to know a Mexican-American guy who grew up in Salinas and got involved with the gangs there but managed to get away from all that and move to another city where he got a job as an inside bank guard.  He made $11 an hour and was proud of how well he was doing with such a responsible and prestigious job.  Once he asked me didn't I think $11 an hour was good money.  I agreed that it certainly was and he said soon he would have enough money saved to take me out to dinner. Then he got demoted to outside guard.  Instead of being warm and dry inside, with a chair to sit on, he stood outside in all sorts of weather.  And his pay dropped to $8.50 an hour.  Our dinner was postponed.  He had diabetes and the pain in his legs made it impossible to stand for very long.  He lost his job, was evicted from his apartment and then just disappeared.

One of my relatives was an engineer with North American at Downy in the 1960s. He worked on the Apollo Command Module.  I mentioned this to someone I was lunching with once and he said the whole moon landing thing was a hoax and never happened.  I looked at him, looked down at my coffee, then at my wrist where a watch would have been had I been wearing one, said I just realized I had an appointment and had to get going.

When I used to ride the super-crowded commuter trains in Tokyo, sometimes I would be groped.  Once some guy even ejaculated on me.  I didn't realize it until I got home and changed my clothes and saw this...well, you know... and practically tossed my cookies.  I threw that outfit right into the trash.  When I mentioned what had happened to a friend, she complained, "Nobody ever does that to me!"

Another time, when I was walking past a girlie bar in Ayase, the doorman or whatever he was stopped me and asked in broken English if I would like to be a hostess there, handing me a business card.  Then he raised both hands palm up and, smiling, repeated "Oppai!  Oppai!"  

One time I was having dinner with a Japanese graduate student matriculating at Cal and we got to talking about American history.  I mentioned the Civil War. He had never heard of it.  I referenced the Revolution. He looked blank.  He thought slavery was legal throughout the US and that it had only been ended by Martin Luther King, Jr. in the 1960s.  I asked him if he thought the attack on Pearl Harbor was revenge for the atomic-bombing of Hiroshima.  He looked thoughtful, then said he had never considered that but it was probably true.

A Japanese immigrant lady in her mid-80s began to get senile and could no longer be trusted to live by herself in her own apartment anymore so her daughter, whom I know, who works long hours and couldn't look after her, found an assisted-living facility that charged $3,000 a month, a figure she could barely afford, and moved her there.  All the staff were Mexicans and the food they served was the cheapest kind of Mexican food, usually just a bean burrito or plain mollete.  The old lady had a hard time eating such food and asked for some Japanese dishes, especially rice, but the request was denied.  Then the facility supervisor announced that all residents had to get Covid-19 shots.  So her daughter took her for an inoculation.  The shot made her so sick that she was hospitalized for three days.  When she returned to her room at the assisted care facility she found that many of her belongings had been stolen, including $390 in cash that she had entrusted to her personal care provider, a Mexican woman.  This woman denied she had been given any money, saying the old lady was senile and imagining things.  Her daughter called the police to report the theft but the dispatcher hung up on her.

This same old Japanese lady owns property in Harajuku that is worth $8 million. Her daughter wants her to sell it so that she can afford to move to a much better assisted-care facility, but the old lady refuses, saying her father (who has been dead for decades) won't let her.  She receives $1,100 a month Social Security, her daughter earns $60,000 a year, and both their savings are almost exhausted.

Once a guy edging by me in a ship's passageway paused, turned around, followed after me and tapped me on the shoulder.  I looked questioningly at him.  He asked me, "If I tell you something, promise you won't 'me too' me? I said, "Sure, I guess."  And he said, "I hope your day is as nice as your ass!"  I said that so far my ass was winning.  Okay, I didn't actually say that, but I thought about saying it.  It had been a crummy day and his lame compliment made me feel good.  I just smiled and went on my way.  But inside my head I was dancing -- not twerking; I don't know how to do that, plus it makes you look like a chimpanzee in heat -- but the Bus Stop, which my mom taught me how to do (it was big in the disco era when she was a hot club babe) and I always dance it when I am happy.  Come on guys!  Don't be shy, give a girl a compliment!

Speaking of compliments, I was showing my friend, who is a real, live PI, around an aircraft carrier one time with some aviator friends and she lagged behind with one guy and later I asked what they were talking about and she said that he was interested to know about her work as a forensic accountant and licensed private investigator.  "He wanted to know if I carried a 'gat.' Kidding, I said I always had one tucked into my garter belt. He said he'd like to see it sometime and I said, what, the gun? and he said no, the garter belt!"

A joke:

There was this guy at a bar just looking at his drink. He stays like that for half of an hour.
Then this big trouble-making truck driver sits down next to him, takes the drink from the guy, and swigs it all down. The poor man starts crying.
The truck driver says, "Come on man, I was just joking. Here, I'll buy you another drink. I can't stand to see a man cry."
"No, it's not that," says the guy. "This day is the worst of my life. First, my alarm clock doesn't go off and I'm way late to work. My boss, outraged, fires me. When I leave the building and go to my car, I discover it has been stolen. The police say that they can do nothing. I get a cab to return home, and when I get out I realize I left my wallet and credit cards in it. The cab driver just drives away.
"I go inside my house, arriving earlier than normal, and find my wife in bed with the gardener and the pool boy. I yell at her but the two men beat me up and throw me out of my own house. So I come to this bar. And just when I was thinking about putting an end to my life, you show up and drink my poison."



Friday, September 24, 2021

Shine, perishing republic


Thomas Hart Benton's "Indifference"

While this America settles in the mould of its vulgarity,
      heavily thickening to empire,
And protest, only a bubble in the molten mass, pops
      and sighs out, and the mass hardens,
I sadly smiling remember that the flower fades to make
      fruit, the fruit rots to make earth.
Out of the mother; and through the spring exultances,
      ripeness and decadence; and home to the mother.
You making haste haste on decay: not blameworthy; life
      is good, be it stubbornly long or suddenly
A mortal splendor: meteors are not needed less than
      mountains; shine, perishing republic.
But for my children, I would have them keep their
      distance from the thickening center; corruption
Never has been compulsory, and when the cities lie at the
      monster’s feet there are left the mountains.
And boys, be in nothing so moderate as in love of man,
      a clever servant, insufferable master.
There is the trap that catches noblest spirits, that caught
      —they say—God, when he walked on earth. 

~ Robinson Jeffers

 I would burn my right hand in a slow fire
To change the future ... I would do so foolishly.  The
beauty of modern
Man is not in the persons but in the
Disastrous rhythm, the heavy and mobile masses, the dance
of the
Dream-led masses down the dark mountain.

 ~ Robinson Jeffers

Tuesday, September 21, 2021

Au combat fut tue...

"Like some infernal monster
still venomous in death,
a war can go on killing people
long after it is over."

~ Nevil Shute




Où est celui que j'ai tant aimé?  Où est celui que j'ai tant aimé?  Où est celui que j'ai tant aimé? 
Où est celui que j'ai tant aimé?  Où est celui que j'ai tant aimé?  Où est celui que j'ai tant aimé?

Thursday, September 16, 2021

You Don't Know


Bravery doesn't look like what you think.
“Lost in Hell, Persephone, Take her head upon your knee; Say to her, "My dear, my dear, It is not so dreadful here. ”
 Edna St. Vincent Millay

 I get so fed up with those God-damned sons of bitches people who complain about women in our armed services.  I get so sick of reading pundits and commenters who disparage women who volunteer to serve.  Fortunately I am not alone:
"How dare someone who's never served a day of their life criticize my Marine Corps and tell other folks who never served a day in their life what the military is all about?
It takes 10 supporting troops for every front line Marine the military fields, much more for the Army. Women were not officially allowed combat duties as recently as the start of the Iraq war, but since then they have more than held their own with the men. So, in spite of these colorful illustrations about women not being able to drag wounded men off the battlefield, this whining and moaning comes from a bunch of cooks and supply clerks who wouldn't know combat if it hit them in the face.
"On the other hand, the female MPs who deployed to Iraq had extensive training on everything from squad movements to heavy weapons. We used to let our females show our support-mos augments how to break apart and re-assemble the .50 cal. Even our 0311 platoon commander lamented that the higher-ups wouldn't allow fully capable women to go outside the wire while we had to risk our lives alongside untrained water purifier augments.
"When my platoon was awarded combat action ribbons for our role in the initial invasion, the female Navy corpsman we had with us was not allowed to have one by her chain of command. It would have been too unprecedented to admit that a female performed the same combat duties as male Marines. Meanwhile she was also caring for wounded enemy prisoners under fire.
"And let's not belittle just how hard females work to overcome the physical shortcomings that they do have. Back when I was in boot camp, the female battalion would have reveille an hour before the rest of us on days we had PT and they would stay out there running for an hour after we were through.
"Face it, we have a volunteer armed forces and we should not begrudge anyone who is willing to put on a uniform and serve. Especially if you're some do-nothing writer who's better suited to staying in the rear and bringing a beer for some of the females service members that you belittle.
"But most importantly of all, I will not stand for some civilian trying to tell people that today's military is in any way lesser than any military from a prior generation. Now that is the ultimate mark of an armchair amateur who probably couldn't hack it through forming week on Paris Island.
"Today's military, especially the Marines, is smarter, harder, and more disciplined than ever. We kill more and die less--that is a fact; and when we're wounded there might be a female surgeon in fatigues saving our life. And there are some corporals with master's degrees out there serving in the infantry. They are up against some of the most dynamic battlefield conditions that require more training and knowledge than ever before.
"This is not like one of the scenes from Battle of the Bulge where a Colonel tells some Private to keep his head down. This is the NCO's war. So to all the old geezers and ignorant fools who find it easy to sit on their couch and say that my Marine Corps has been getting soft, I have to say they're just wishing they were good enough themselves."
--BBK 

 "I have known some pretty tough ladies over the years. One NCO, shot in the leg by a young private on the range when he let off an ND with his rifle, still had the grit to beat the shit out of him before they carted her off to the hospital. One of my ancestors was a crack shot with a rifle in Kentucky in the 1700s. She was a Whitley. Asked by a Shawnee warrior why her husband let her have a weapon (in a very condescending way), she replied “So I can kill you bastards when you raid my farm.” The Shawnee stayed away from her farm. Rumor has it that she even beat Daniel Boone at a turkey shoot. My Great grandma was an Irish girl who never considered herself properly dressed unless she was packing a Peacemaker, and she was a very good shot. And in 2006, we had a young lady at the PRT who could handle a MK-19 like Yo Yo Ma handles a cello. She was a local legend to our Afghan troops. Skill, determination, and courage are not limited by gender, and I know a lot of males I would not want on the line with me. Politics must never dictate watering down standards in order go get the “minority du jour” a place of preferment. But neither should we deny ourselves the services of ass kicking warriors who happen to be women."
--RP

And you know what?  War is war and those we have fought this century have been brutal.  For the women who served as well as the men:

"During the war I was equal at last, and often it was too much to bear.  I ate breakfast like a woman with a wired jaw, so much did I dread having to go out there and face it all.  There are stories I could tell but so very much has already been said, and none of it ever made any difference at all."
--Gloria E.

 "The war was the pivotal event of my life. Yet I never mention my days on helicopter assaults, my fear of getting shot in the face, for the same reason most marines kept quiet. Nobody wants to hear about it, and even if they did, they wouldn’t understand."
--Diane F. 

"Wars don't end. Every bullet leaves an exit wound. Lives stop, dreams collapse, futures implode."
--Lara P. 

 


An old cartoon.










Me, Myself and I









 

Thursday, September 9, 2021

Death and Survival

A flight of six F4F-4s.
I recently  got to take a look at my grandfather's flight log book from when he was a naval aviator during World War II.  I had known something of his life in those days from a memoir he started and made some entries in, but mostly left blank.  I've  quoted from that about his first air combats in 1942.
Deck crew unfolds F4F-4's wings.
But I did not know that later in that same year he was shot down, forced to parachute into the sea and was declared missing in action and his family notified but was rescued more than a month later.
An F4F-4 is waved into position for launch.
I had no idea about any of this and can't recall it ever being mentioned. It was just a part of his life that happened when he was a young man and it was nothing that would come up in conversation.  In any case, he wasn't much of a talker. 
One thing that struck me when I was looking into this episode is how tired he must have been the day he was shot down.  He flew six hours, six combat hours that day, guarding the carriers and transports. Three carrier launches and two carrier recoveries. 
Pilots man your planes!  An F4F-4 being scrambled.
The first launch was at 6 am, a combat patrol over his carrier, just at dawn.  So he had to have been up some considerable time before that, probably since 4 am to allow time enough to get dressed, have breakfast, meet in the ready room and get briefed, then the usual  hurry up and wait.
Then another combat patrol shortly after 10 am over the transport screen.  Some four hours flying just in the morning, with all the tension of watching and waiting for an enemy attack.  He was the flight leader each time, being the senior officer, a  Lt. (jg). 
Then on the final combat patrol, launched shortly after 1pm, leading five others, he encountered 33 enemy aircraft -- 15 bombers escorted by 18 fighters.  Outnumbered five-and-a-half to one, yet there was no choice but to fight.  Three of the fighters attacked the G4M bombers while the remaining three, including my grandfather, went after the escorting Zeros to try to keep them away from the three F4Fs going after the bombers
The life raft compartment behind the F4F-4 cockpit, and the life raft.
The three fighters that attacked the bombers all survived, although one landed badly shot up and another had to make an emergency landing on another carrier.  The third one didn't have any damage at all.
All three of the fighters that engaged the Zeros were shot down and their pilots declared missing and presumed dead.  Two are still missing, their fates unknown. 
The Navy credits my grandfather with shooting down two Zeros before going down
The F4F-4's uninflated life raft and its storage bay.
himself.  Another pilot shot down a Zero as well before he, too, was shot down. 
I had imagined that my grandfather, after being shot down, floated around in his life raft until he was rescued.  But that wasn't what happened.  Twenty-millimeter cannon shells struck the life raft compartment behind the cockpit of his F4F and the life raft was ripped out, inflating as it did so. But it clung flapping in the slipstream to the outside of the airplane, tethered to it by a line such as you can see in the photo above, seriously affecting control of the plane.  Other cannon shells ripped into one of the wing fuel tanks, setting it on fire.
A Zero in the gunsight of an F4F-4.
My grandfather bailed out at 3,000 feet.  He didn't open his parachute until he was very close to the water for fear of being machine-gunned by the many Zeros circling around.  As a result, when he hit the water, he injured his spine. 
To make matters worse, as he was struggling back to the surface and trying to get clear of his parachute shrouds, a Zero crashed into the water almost on top of him. He was knocked underwater by the wave surge of the impact and surfaced into a sea of flaming gasoline.
Pilot's ready room. A little tense.

He wrestled out of his parachute harness and swam away from the wreckage of the Zero, only to have two Zeros strafe him, possibly expending the last of their ammunition as they only made one pass and kept on going.
Mitsubishi G4M  bomber going down.
 And then he was alone.  For days he treaded water in the vast sea.  Immersed in water though he was, he developed a raging thirst. He tried to drink sea water and vomited. He hallucinated.  Bizarre waking dreams that made him unable to distinguish the real from the unreal.  At some point, he washed up on a coral reef off a small island and the surf pounding him onto its sharp projections brought him to his senses.  He waded and swam to the island beach where he slept in the warm sand.  When he awoke, he found lots and lots of coconuts lying around but he couldn't get them open.  He built a fire using a jury-made bow and stick against tinder on a flat piece of wood, then burned the coconuts until the shells became thin enough that he could crack them open and finally slake his thirst and get some food in him.  He lived thereafter on coconuts and coconut crabs.  For the first day or two he only made a small fire and put it out and covered the remains after he had eaten, fearful of Japanese patrols.  But there were no Japanese, nor anyone else on the island.  He made an "SOS" out of driftwood on the beach, kept a smokey signal fire going, ate, slept and stared out to sea and up at the sky.
He was reported missing and his family notified. The dreaded telegram. Missing, presumed dead.  And then, 37 days after he was shot down, he was reported safe.  A passing flight of American bombers spotted his fire and signal and a PBY flew out and picked him up and within minutes he went from chewing on a crab claw to drinking strong Navy coffee and eating Vienna sausages and soda crackers. Three days later he was flown from Tulagi island to Espirito Santos island, a long flight in another PBY, which is noted in his log book.  After 10 days in the hospital there, he was returned to his ship.
In his log book he notes this PBY flight down on the August page.  There is no September page.  The next page is October, when he resumes normal flight activities with his fighter squadron.  So, to be clear, he was shot down on August 7, rescued and reported safe on September 15, as noted in his log book, flown to Espirito Santos on September 18 ('though at first glance it would seem August 18) with flight time noted in his logbook, then returned to his ship on September 28.
 As a summary, on the day my grandfather was shot down, a total of 18 F4F-4s battled attacking Japanese aircraft formations.  Nine were shot down and four pilots killed, two planes made it back to their carrier but were so badly damaged they were pushed over the side, and four others suffered battle damage.
In exchange, four Japanese bombers were shot out of the sky, one crashed on the return flight home and one made it back to base but crashed while trying to land.  Another 19 bombers suffered battle damage.  Three Zeros were shot down, five made forced landings on the way home, one crashing as it attempted to land, one made it home but crashed on landing, and 10 more suffered battle damage.  The Japanese bombers did not score even one hit on our ships.
It seems, in terms of destroyed aircraft, that the two sides came out even that day. But there were dozens and dozens of Japanese fighters and bombers and just 18 young American pilots, never more than six together, who had to drive them away from our ships.  In that they succeeded, despite the high cost to themselves.
And my grandfather survived, so I am here! 
I write that rather flippantly.  But the truth is that it was a near thing for me to come into existence.  Three young men went into combat against many times their number of enemy fighters and two of them were killed.  The one that led to me survived, just barely.  But who would have been born had those other two men lived?  Why were they not born and I was? There's a whole finger-fan of people born because my grandfather lived, and...nothing...because the two men who went into combat with him against the Zero fighters did not.

(Regarding the flight log, the letter "K" in the column, "Character of Flight," stands for "Tactical"; that is, an operational combat flight.  The number written in the "Passengers" column was the radio frequency the flight used. The ARA/ATA radio the F4F was equipped with operated voice communications on 1.5 to 3.0 MHz so "188 channel" would be 1.88 MHz.)

 

 

Monday, September 6, 2021

Cozy gloom

A Saturday night get-together that is not so exuberant.  Fall is in the air, the high was only 53 today, with the sun giving little warmth after the morning mist and overcast drifted away.  There's a fire in the fireplace and only one lamp burning.  No one wants to acknowledge, let alone talk about, anything outside this room and this moment.

We play some old slow tunes and dance.  Won't you join us?


 

Saturday, September 4, 2021

Not me!


 I was browsing some website that hosts a variety of fringe stuff -- a lot of it is interesting to me as much for the way it reveals how people think and what they want to believe as for anything else.  Somebody leaned over my shoulder and browsed along with me for a few minutes before asking me if I was a white nationalist.  Hah!  As if! Those characters would drop-kick my butt out of their treehouse in a heartbeat.

But considering the way whites, especially white men, are savaged by society today, I can't help feeling sympathy for them.  But whenever I try to do so, I am viciously attacked and driven away.  Why?  Because they absolutely hate women, especially white women.  Oriental women are okay by them, but not white women.  

I know, crazy, right?  But there it is.  Where do these guys think white men come from anyway?  Apparently they believe they just materialize out of the ether or reproduce asexually, like some kind of human amoebas.

One time Mark Twain was asked to give a talk on the theme, "What would men be without women?"  He gave a very short speech. Rising from his seat and striding to the speaker's podium, he surveyed his all-male audience.  "What would men be without women, you want to know," he said.  "Scarce, sirs, almighty scarce."  And then he went back to his seat and sat down.

White nationalists should inject the word "white" into Twain's first sentence and think  hard and long about the implications of what he said.  If you boys want to perpetuate the white race, you really should stop reviling white women.

I don't hold out much expectation of that happening.  The movement, such as it appears to be, seems made up of incels, hen-pecked weaklings, bitter divorced men, and assorted dweebs, dorks and nerds, as well as, of course, lots and lots of your standard woman haters.

It's kind of too bad, because I sense a lot of sympathy for the average white, man or woman, these days despite of, or more likely because of, the intense institutional and societal hatred directed at them.  A lot of that sympathy comes from non-whites with white friends and spouses, as well as those who just wish all this stupid race-baiting would go away.  They suspect it's some kind artificial distraction created for no good ends by the powers that be. 

Not being conspiracy-minded myself, I suspect it may be merely a crazy political fad, such as all those pre-school child-molesting scandals that erupted in the 1980s, like the McMartin PreSchool phony trial and all of that.  Insane stuff just blows up in society from time to time.  File it under the madness of crowds.  However, who knows for sure? 

But in the meantime, I dedicate this little video to all you white-women-hating white nationalists.  Suck on it!

 


Wednesday, September 1, 2021

No man left behind

I was visiting the Japanese lady I wrote about here just recently when the talked turned to the situation in Afghanistan.   She had some of her Japanese friends over, as well as her Chinese friend, and to a person they were appalled by what was happening, as who isn't, I guess.

But their take on it struck me as very interesting.  What shocked them was that Americans were left behind as we retreated.

What about the American ideal of "No man left behind"? they asked.  How could you betray that?  And to my surprise, they referenced the movies Saving Private Ryan, Blackhawk Down and, especially, Bat 21.

It never would have occurred to me in a million years that these old Oriental ladies, none younger than her early 70s, would have ever even seen such movies as these, let alone remember them and relate them to contemporary world events.  But they did.  While making passing references to the first two movies, it was Bat 21 that they really talked about.  I remember watching it on TV with my dad and brothers when I was a kid and my dad saying it was a good movie. The movie, as I recalled it, was gripping but routine -- a guy trapped behind enemy lines and the efforts made to rescue him.

But to these ladies who grew up in an East Asian culture with an entirely different attitude toward the individual in society, these were revolutionary films and Bat 21, I guess because of its focus on one individual, had made a special and lasting impression.  The Japanese women recalled the Pacific War and how the Japanese military had abandoned hundreds of thousands of Japanese troops, leaving them to starve to death, making no effort to rescue them, just turning away and leaving them to their fate, while the American military would spare no effort to rescue just one single person.  They marveled at that, and admired it.  Such a country that cared so much for the lives of each one of its citizens was extraordinary.


I knew during the Pacific War we as a matter of course rescued downed airmen, flying in search of them with sea planes and float planes.  My own grandfather was rescued by a PBY after he was shot down at sea during the Guadalcanal campaign.  But the Japanese made no effort to rescue a Japanese airman shot down at sea and surviving.  He was expected to die, one way or the other, for the Emperor.

So these women had expected the US military to do whatever it took, no matter the cost, to get every single American out of Afghanistan.  It did not occur to them that they would simply be abandoned.  Not by America!  So they were shocked, appalled, disbelieving, by what took place.  And then disgusted and angry.  Where were the US Marines?

Well, the Iwo Jima was offshore with elements of the 24th Marine Expeditionary Unit, along with the Ronald Reagan, but the jarheads stayed aboard.  No rescue ordered.

I sensed that these old ladies, each of whom had emigrated to this country from her native land because they saw it as clearly better, not in material things -- after all, Japan and China are at least as advanced in material things as the United States -- but in moral stature, in possessing a superior civilization.

Watching those old movies had first made them aware that there was a country where the life of the individual person was truly important  and would be protected even at great cost to the nation.  They believed this was a fundamental part of what America was.  No man left behind.  To us, it's just a slogan, maybe mere boiler plate.  But to them it was a revolutionary assertion defying the great lords of the earth who trampled on "the masses" at will.

And now they saw all that they believed America to be betrayed.  They could not believe it.  And they were shaken.  Was America becoming just another despotic regime?  Why?  What happened?  They looked to me for answers.

I had none.